So, this birthday has felt heavier than most....I've had a roller coaster of emotions in regards to life, creation, age, weight, love lost, and evaluation of my present and current circumstances....and it all comes back to this: I'm 36, single, and satisfied in my Savior (although I don't often live like it!)
Tonight in a prayer meeting we talked of being "anchored in Love".....as I thought about this, the Lord reminded me that to be "anchored in Love" is to be anchored in the gospel, which is to be anchored and rooted in Christ, which is to be connected to God by the power of the Holy Spirit.....because ultimately, God is love and God is perfect....and "perfect love drives out fear" 1 John 4:18......it all comes full circle.....
So, I won't be afraid of loving God more, loving others more boldly, loving myself, and receiving love from Christ Himself and through others......I pray this for each of you as well......be anchored and rooted in love in all you say, think, and do.......it's never easy, but we are called to things such as this....and without love, we are truly nothing but a "clanging gong"!
As I was driving home, the song "I Am" came on my ipod by Nichole Nordeman and these words moved me to tears (as they usually do):
Pencil marks on a wall
I wasn't always this tall,
You scattered some monsters from beneath my bed,
You watched my team win,
You watched my team lose,
You watched when my bicycle went down again,
And When I was weak unable to speak,
still I could call You by name,
and I said “Elbow healer, Superhero,
come if You can,” and You said “I Am”
Only 16, life is so mean, what kind of curfew is at ten PM
You saw my mistakes, You watched my heart break
Heard when I swore I’d never love again
When I was weak, unable to speak,
still I could call You by name,
and I said “Heart-ache Healer, Secret-keeper,
be my Best Friend” and You said “I Am”
When I am weak, unable to speak,
still I will call You by name.
“Oh Shepherd, Savior, Pasture-maker,
hold on to my hand,” and You say “I Am.”
The winds of change,
And circumstance blow in and all around
us so we find a foothold that’s familiar,
And bless the moments that we feel You nearer
Life had begun, I was woven and spun,
You let the angels dance around the throne, who can say when,
But they’ll dance again, when I am free and finally headed home
I will be weak, unable to speak,
still I will call You by name
“Creator, Maker, Life-sustainer,
Comforter, Healer, My Redeemer,
Lord and King, Beginning and
the End, I Am, yes, I Am.”
*He is everything to me and I pray that this coming year I will start to truly live and act like it......blessings to all of you who bless me with your friendship and unyielding love! Cheers to another year of worshipping and serving our great and awesome God!
**the above pictures are two of my childhood birthdays (always memorable with many "bunny" cakes - thanks mom!) and the birth announcement that my mom made when I was born and my dad was still in college working on his PhD! Good times!
